I’m imagining keith meeting the pilot’s other son duras and being like ‘ur son is……………………..kkind of a wiener,’
❛ Well, if it gets too bad, give me a signal. ❜
MAKE ME SUFFER || accepting
❛if it
gets too bad
give me
A SIGNAL. ❜
fingers tangle themselves in thick, dark hair, his head heavy in his own hands. shiro had pulled him aside – just before allura had – to offer him an out. to ask him if he really wanted to board zarkon’s ship alone. keith had been STUBBORN and UNSHAKING; if his galra blood was going to make people hate him, at the very least he would be damn sure that it was useful this time.
goosebumps rise on pallid flesh at the memory of the sigh that escaped his BROTHER, the sound of a defeated man in the face of a bullheaded teenager.
❛Well, if it gets too bad…give me a signal.❜
keith can’t remember what he said back. he remembers the way they bumped the edges of their fists. regret pools in his stomach, hot and guilty.
if only he’d known…
why didn’t he hug him?
the paladin had RUSHED back to greet his leader, eager and fulfilled. they did it. he did it. the aching loss of thace – the last bit of tangible proof he’d had left that he could still be RIGHTEOUS, even if he was a g a l r a – still felt fresh and sharp in his chest. but he couldn’t wait to tell shiro how brave he had been, how he didn’t even cry when thace sacrificed himself for the cause –
but shiro’s seat was e m p t y.
keith set himself to comforting the others. his palm fell against pidge’s shoulder, mumbling something about how they would get him back. hunk threw his arms around keith a bit too tightly, and he didn’t pull away.
he stopped before lance, for a beat. they
stared at each other…but keith came up empty.
he still isn’t sure if he saw lance nod or not, but somehow he understood from his expression that it was OKAY to slip away.
so he did.
armor clatters softly in the silence of an empty room from the quaking of his shoulders, and keith curses himself for the motion. be still. breathe deep. don’t cry. the tears are scalding enough to burn as they blur his vision; his hands slide down to clamp over his mouth and stifle a sob.
if it gets too bad, he had said, send me a signal.
popping open a compartment on his armor, keith slammed his fingers over and over again into the button to signal. please. please pick up. please pick up. please –
the seam between chanting it inside his mind and having the words spill frantically out into the open air around him is nearly impossible to discern. with a frustrated, wet scream, his pillow is flung across the room towards the far wall. a shaking breath brought him back to himself enough to wipe at his face and fall silent.
one beat.
two beats.
THREE.
❝come on, shiro. give us a signal.
give us something, ANYTHING –
Please.❞
you can have FOUR
who in your OTP made the grocery list and who did the writing in red
Shiro and the other Paladins
❛ It’s a great honor, to save a life. You saved many. ❜
MAKE ME SUFFER || accepting
❝It doesn’t…feel like a great honor. Not all the time.❞
it’s COMPLICATED. keith would gladly risk his own life for the lives of others – hell, he’d ( less gladly ) sacrifice someone he cares for to save the lives of others. the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few. he knows that.
❝I…appreciate what you’re saying. Thank you. But there’s just some stuff I wish I never had to see, you know? And I don’t…do it for the glory. These people need our help. I’m not really the type to rest when someone needs something.❞
but BOY, does he need a rest.
there is no rest in wartime, foolish child.
❛ I’m sorry it took me so long to see you. ❜
MAKE ME SUFFER || accepting
❝Yeah, well, I’m used to that – ❞
a lesson keith has learned from combat training is that FEAR OF UNFINISHED BUSINESS IN DEATH makes people feel inclined to make a desperate grab for
f o r g i v e n e s s.
did it make her apology meaningless? no, not completely. but now, after the rush of adrenaline has faded away, he feels QUITE STRONGLY that it wasn’t enough – at least, not alone. his biggest problem has always been that his DESOLATE existence left him craving trust and closeness. he forges bonds so quickly, so suddenly; he pushes his heart into peoples’ hands and begs them to treat it kindly.
but once they clench their fists, wringing it dry?
regaining that trust is much, much harder.
❝Are we d o n e here, Princess?❞ it comes out cold and unfamiliar – as if she approached him as a stranger on the street and asked him for the time. ❝I have training to get back to if we’re going to find Shiro and win this thing.❞
he doesn’t give her the chance to respond, squaring his shoulders and turning to deliver a swift, hard punch to a training dummy with a grunt.
I want………..a musician au of some kind so bad?? Like I hc that keith can sing/play guitar in general but………an au would be………….so good,
I’m really really good to connie @sharpshct lmao………………..isn’t she lucky…………..to kno me,
❛ Do you blame me for every mistake I made? For every dumb thing I’ve said? ❜ (i too like to suffer)
MAKE ME SUFFER || accepting
❝If they’re YOUR mistakes, who ELSE am I supposed to blame, Lance ?! God, can’t you take responsibility for yourself, just this o n c e ?! ❞
harsh, ragged breath sucked through clenched teeth s h u d d e r s with stress. broad, armor clad shoulders are tense and burdened and TREMBLING. no one knew how to crawl beneath the surface of keith’s skin and find a home there quite like lance – no one ever truly tried quite as hard at it. the edges of his voice soften, just slightly; his volume dips low and dangerous.
❝Look – I know you don’t REMEMBER much of it? But we almost lost you once. And as the person who was conscious, propping you up with my B O D Y? I remember how scary that was. Stupid mistakes and dumb slip-ups or whatever you want to call them? Could cost us our LIVES. We can’t do this without you. Period.❞
honesty like this feels foreign on his lips. it’s as if he’s lost control of his mouth, and it takes all of his willpower to push himself to tack something on – just to take the emotional EDGE off of what he just said.
❝We can’t do this without any of us. We wouldn’t be
able to form Voltron, and if that happens? We’re dead.
It’s over. Done-skie. Do you get that?❞
( much better. that sounds way less personal. way less like he cares about what happens to lance personally. he wouldn’t want that to come back and bite him later when lance feels like rubbing it in his face that he was worried or scared or WEAK. )
❝Do you honestly think I’m hard on you like this because it’s FUN for me? I just don’t want to see you die out here. So if it makes you feel better to paint me like a VILLAIN for that? Be my guest. If you want to dodge the blame for it so badly that you’d make me look like an asshole for asking you to keep yourself alive? Sure. I’m the jerk. Whatever. I’m used to it. I don’t give one single, solitary quiznak.
Just – please, be careful.❞
BOOK STARTERS [19] ( SHADOW AND BONE ) ( LEIGH BARDUGO )
- ❛ I missed you every hour. ❜
- ❛ You know what the worst part was? It caught me completely by surprise. ❜
- ❛ I’ve risked my life for you. ❜
- ❛ The problem with wanting is that it makes us weak. ❜
- ❛ I love you, even the part of you that loved him. ❜
- ❛ I’m sorry it took me so long to see you. ❜
- ❛ I never really belonged anywhere. ❜
- ❛ Thanks for being my best friend and making my life bearable. ❜
- ❛ Thanks for finding me. ❜
- ❛ You and I are going to change the world. ❜
- ❛ I’ve been waiting for you a long time. ❜
- ❛ I’m not used to people trying to kill me. ❜
- ❛ You’re shaking. ❜
- ❛ Here’s nothing wrong with being a lizard. Unless you were born to be a hawk. ❜
- ❛ Make me your villain. ❜
- ❛ Just you and me. It’s always just you and me. ❜
- ❛ Do you blame me for every mistake I made? For every dumb thing I’ve said? ❜
- ❛ Well, if it gets too bad, give me a signal. ❜
- ❛ Did you tell him what I showed you in the dark? ❜
- ❛ Did you miss me when you were gone? ❜
- ❛ What is infinite? The universe and the greed of men. ❜
- ❛ You’re interfering with my plan. ❜
- ❛ Too much champagne? ❜
- ❛ I hope you don’t expect fairness from me. It isn’t one of my specialties. ❜
- ❛ There is something more powerful than any army. Something strong enough to topple kings. Faith. ❜
- ❛ All you said was that I had to kill you. You didn’t say how. ❜
- ❛ What is she? She’s everything, you dumb son of a bitch. ❜
- ❛ She’s an ugly little thing. No child should look like that. Pale and sour, like a glass of milk that’s turned. ❜
- ❛ I wouldn’t make that mistake again. ❜
- ❛ It’s a great honor, to save a life. You saved many. ❜
