u dont have to apologise for anything!!!! take care of yourself first and foremost. rp comes second to your mental wellbeing alWAYS. :) }
no no u misunderstand my mental wellbeing is bad bc i cant rp asfreely asI want to brgskjeflwaefgn
I’m sorry I haven’t been productive but my stupid space bar is sticking really badly and I’m having a Bad Brain Time because of how many hours I’ve been working lately?? Like. I have so few hours to be on now because I’m always working that the thought of wasting that time making icons when I hate doing it makes me Depressed but I know I can’t actually do stuff until I make more icons and then I sit here staring at my screen numbly and get NOTHING done………………………………………..
I forgot to post this lmao
❝What exactly do you MEAN by
‘can’t risk them finding me’?❞
❝…peas are fruit?❞
> WHEN’S THE LAST TIME YOU HIT THE GYM? 10,000 YEARS AGO?
> I’LL HAVE YOU KNOW I DITCHED THE SHOULDER PADS 5,000 YEARS AGO THIS IS ALL MUSCLE ★
❝ Any mother would be lucky to have you as their son. ❞
MAKE KEITH FEEL LOVED !! || [ accepting ]
❝Oh yeah?❞ bitterness bubbles to a scalding boil in his gut – the MONSTER he struggles to pacify claws its hideous way up the paladin’s T I G H T throat. he swallows, trying to stifle it, nearly choking on its razor-sharp talons.
❝That’s easy for you to say. You weren’t there. I didn’t HAVE a mother. I barely had a father, in the end. How can you say anyone would be lucky to have me when no one ever seems to want me? When the mother I had turned tail and ran?❞
he can’t stop. he wants to stop but its spilling forth like sick – and, like sick, it tastes foul in his mouth and fills every orifice until he can’t breathe. WHO THE HELL DO THEY THINK THEY ARE ANYWAY? they deserve this. they deserve the pain he’s about to cause them. he hopes they choke on it, he hopes this knocks the wind from their lungs like a swift, forceful blow to the d i a p h r a g m.
And you know w h a t? I reckon if you took the
time to go find your boy…what was his name?❞
❝KOHLAR?❞
( the name tastes familiar enough to make him
dig his fingernails into his palms. he HATES it. )
❝If you looked him in the face and told him any mother would be lucky to have him – but oh no, not you, never you, right? because you left and you didn’t look back so maybe some OTHER lady would have loved him better than you could – as if that’s supposed to be comforting? He’d tell you to shut your quiznak.
—— No boy who was abandoned ever wants to hear that somewhere exists a person that wouldn’t have left. Did you really think that this was what I needed?❞
Norwegian wood (2010)
Y’all would not believe how much of my day revolves around waiting for El @valilance to be awake/around it’s seriously embarrassing we’ve known each other for three days lmao
"You know that I'm proud of you, right?"
MAKE KEITH FEEL LOVED !! || [ accepting ]
❝Guess I do now. What brought this on?❞
the praise hits his ears PLEASANTLY; it feels unfamiliar but amiable. and keith knows shiro well enough to know that he wouldn’t LIE, not about this.
( not about a n y t h i n g, if he could help it. )
❝Not that I’m complaining. It’s…thanks.❞
